thought of the moment:
"it's 10:20. lunch is so soon. i can't wait i can't wait."
so we go from crying as a result from laughing so hard, to crying as a result of having things go wrong.
i found out yesterday that i have an extra $6,000 to pay in loans on top of what i've already knew i was paying. ugh. i guess that debt free date is much further off than i thought it was gonna be.
but i took that engineering test. so it's over. that's a good thing. now i'll get back to playing and having fun and thinking less and stressing less and enjoying things and time and space. something positive will pop up somewhere. somehow.
bleh.
you want to laugh so hard that you will cry?
seriously, this is the best site EVER.
if you don't laugh really really hard for a long time, something must be wrong with you.
"i am a joke baby pig"
from page 2:
"So it happened again...If the Red Sox were a girl, you would probably just break up with them. You would call them on the phone, explain to them calmly that you can't take it anymore, let them down as gently as possible, then move on with your life."
at least i won't be distracted by the world series while i try to study for my exam. i don't like baseball anyway. i don't like you either.
poop.
http://www.celebmatch.com/bestmatch.php
the only match i heard of before was penelope cruz. sounds good to me. oh, that and mandy moore and i have a 99% match intellectually.
ooh, and if i was born two days later, i'd have david beckham as a 99% match.
fun
i think this blog is going dork for the next two weeks. i'll be talking about all those fun things you learn in highschool (if you take the smart people classes), and the stuff you learn in college (if you're an engineer/science-type person). stuff like thermodynamics and kinetics and chemistry. i'm still studying for that exam. and i hate it.
part of me is thinking that i should have never mentioned to anyone that i was planning on taking it. cause then, if i don't pass, no one would know that i didn't pass. kind of like freshman year at mit.
but now it's too late. i'm screwed. and all i can do is study. ugh.
most of my friends said they wouldn't get a tattoo for a free taco everyday for the rest of their lives. (fools!)
but maybe they'd go for this: free web hosting for life. all it costs is the price of a tattoo. (oh, and telling your friends that you got a tattoo for free web hosting)
i used to find out that the test was the next day, i'd spend all night studying everything i should have learned since the last test, i'd take the test, then i'd take a really long nap.
it always worked pretty well. i maybe didn't do brilliantly, but i always passed. i always did better than a surprising number of my classmates who kept up with the work and tried hard.
so what would have happened if i kept up and did my work?
no no no, that's not the question at hand.
i'm not even asking questions, i'm just upset realizing that this studying strategy won't help with the 8 hour exam i have coming up. i've already started studying. i started a few weeks ago. it sucks. i thought that learning would be nice and using my brain would feel refreshing.
but it really just sucks. when you get off of a 12 hour work day, 3 hours of studying can't really compete with the option of surfing with pretty girls.
something's going on with me that i just don't think i like. i've been feeling all antsy and unsettled and exhausted but restless. like i either have too much going on or too little going on. i just want to get back to being ok with things.
like maybe there's just stuff hanging over my head that weigh on the back or front of my mind that i need to just won't go away. that feeling of needing to get out of here is overwhelming. and if these projects at work didn't make me feel obligated to stick around, i'd be gone.
"there's a way...and i know i have to go away. i know i have to go..."