so i've upgraded from mt 2.661 to mt 3.15. does it look funny? anything just totally broken? let me know...
so i was just doing this mindless task at work and my brain started going wherever it wanted to. it led me to remember this dream i had. i think i had it twice over a period of a few weeks a while ago. it's not anything i've dreamt recently, and i don't think it has to do anything with what's going on in my life nowadays (which is me working a full day at my day job, then going to the old job and working there for another 6-8 hours. yikes). i just wanted to get it down so i could remember it. maybe you've had a dream like it. maybe like the teeth-cracking dream i have now and again:
ok. so the scenario was a bit different each time, but the theme connecting the dreams was me having a feeling of being extremely dizzy-ish, drunk-ish feeling. i could think clearly, could hold a conversation with other people walk by in the dream, but i couldn't open my eyes and look at anything. in one of the dreams, i had to go from somewhere to somewhere else, but i felt dizzy and disoriented when i tried. i would sit down with my knees drawn up and hugged against my chest, my forehead resting on my knees. it would make me feel better, but once i tried to get up and walk, the drunkenness (of movement only) came back.
yup. that's all. it's weird. maybe. maybe it's normal and good. ok then.
i haven't been sleeping well lately. i took a 15-hour nap on friday afternoon. 5:30pm to 8am. it was glorious. saturday night was a good sleep, too. but sunday and monday found me unable to sleep, despite being pretty damn tired. maybe i should look into those herbal remedies. or whatever.
so i'm giving up on cleaning up the comments on my site. i got 71 comments this weekend. they're trying to sell propecia, black tea, vioxx lawsuits, and all kinds of other medications. enough already. i give up.
actually, i'm planning to spend a few minutes every day to go back to old posts and close commenting and delete advertising comments. it'll take forever, but eventually, i'll become immune to all this crap.
it's a statement, not a question.
well, no. it's a question, really. but it's said in that way where you're really saying something instead of asking.
ok. one: i've gotten over 100 comments to my blog. thanks, fuckers. no, it's not nice happy warm-blooded readers like you. it's dumbfuck advertising cocksmokers. i hate you i hate you i hate you.
two: Nail embedded in man's skull for 6 days
this article is so filled with wonderful lines to quote, you'll just have to read it yourself. it's about a guy who SHOOTS HIMSELF IN THE HEAD WITH A NAIL GUN, BUT (and wait for it...) HE DOESN'T KNOW IT. he went to the dentist because he had a minor toothache.
jeesus.
so i just feel like maybe the last year (the very very end of it, maybe) ended with too many treats for this new year to be good. like, i used up all my karmic goodness by the end of the year, as if i was afraid that i would just lose it and start at zero on january 1. all those presents that i was bragging about. all that marathon finishing and what not. ugh.
so yesterday presented me with the new year's first opportunity to get into a fight. i was walking across the parking lot to pick up my lunch from this new curry place when an old beat-up car comes racing down the lane from my right. though i was already beginning to cross the lane, i stopped and stepped back. the driver, at the same time, swerved to his left to allow me to cross in front of him, so that he could zoom past. he noticed in time that i stopped and backed up, so he swerved back to his right to pass in front of me, while letting out a loud and angry "FUCK".
my internal dialogue:
hey, i just wanted to cross the lane and pick up my curry. i'm a reasonable guy; i just tried to get out of your way. you know what i'm gonna do? i'm gonna flip you off
and flip him off i did.
you'd think that'd be the end of it. it's some angry guy zooming around a parking lot. he's probably busy and/or late for something. that's what i was thinking as i walked past his car and noticed that he was yelling, coming to a screeching halt, and getting out of his car. i turned my head to notice that he was a guy about my age, about my size, wearing an aloha shirt and slacks. he was walking towards me calling me out to fight him.
i pretended to not notice and kept walking to my curry place. i got inside the door of the place and noticed that he was still screaming, swearing and coming towards me. i didn't want to throw down in the curry place. i mean, how would that be for the curry place's opening week?
i opened the door, held up my hand and said, "ok. my fault. sorry." i assume that is was all he was gonna fight for, because he shouted back, "ok then!" and turned and walked back to his beat-up car, swearing and grumbling the whole way.
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today, i woke up to find my carpet soaked with the overflowing of something in the unit adjacent to mine. i also took a quick trip to the doctor to diagnose my antibiotic-deserving sore throat. oh, i also found out about a glitch in my health insurance happenings. sweet!
add in a few random lesser-bad news events, and i'm seriously a black cat crossing from packing it up and moving far, far away.
i want to thank the multitudes of IP addresses that comment on my blog. most of you won't know what i'm talking about, so i'll explain. when you comment on the blog (which is a normally rare occurance), i get an email about it. it's nice. i get an email AND comment. splendid.
this weekend, however, i got 25 comment-emails. "great!" you say. "so many people are active participants in your blog!" wrong and wrong. these comments are easily split into two groups. group number one could be called "vioxx" and the other could be called "breasts".
there are these evil internet marketing people out there using all their brainpower to develop ways to have their computers efficiently harass other people's computers. one method is spam: unsolicited emails. the other is the yet un-catch-phrased problem that i have: unsolicited comments.
the first group of comments weren't too objectionable, really. they were a simple post from a user named "info". his comment on every post of mine? "vioxx causes heart attacks." it wasn't trying to sell anything, really. it was, maybe, just trying to get desperately important information about public health related topics out to the people who need it the most. alas, the comment was deleted and their IP addresses banned.
the second grouping of comments were about breasts. they were advertising both "natural" and "herbal" breasts enlargement. and while this group also is focusing its efforts toward making the world a better place (what would make the world better, more rapidly than a general enlargening of breasts?), i had to decide to delete the comments and ban the associated IP addersses. (their intro line in the comment was: "have small breasts?")
so i'm back to having no comments from anyone. it's not so bad that way. easy to manage and maintain. esp when there's all this other crap that i should be doing.
it's funny how the bliss of new stuff during xmas turns into sickness, cars driving into my parked car, and buttloads of work to do.
sure, there was thenew tv and the tivo, and the 2GB of ram, and the new wireless router. but now there's just a bunch of empty boxes laying around my place. and all this dirty laundry. and shoes. and way too much stuff for far too little space.
and oh! the work i need to do. with a full time gig plus my old job giving me deadlines! woe is me. whoa is not me. feel sorry for me. me and my beautifully technologically redone studio. maybe tivo'ed episodes of alias and lost will help.
all whining aside, things have been ok. i played tennis the other night at my brother's place. i've started playing ball again. and i've made very small gains in improving my place. things that still have be done are surfing and the new kitchen of my dreams. and maybe finishing off this box of poptarts.
so i went to compUSA to get myself a USB-ethernet or a USB-wireless adapter for my new tivo. i looked at the coupon booklet/advertisement stuff. it said i could get a new router AND the adapter i needed for the price of just the adapter i needed. again, i could buy the thing i needed, or i could buy something to upgrade something i already had, and get the thing i needed for FREE. good stuff.
then i go to the office today and looked through the little mail-in rebate stuff. i count it all up and realize that i'm getting $140 back. but my purchase only totalled $125. so: i get stuff, i fill in forms and spend a few bucks in stamps, and get $15 bucks. maybe this new year is gonna be ok.